Disobedience, Murder, and a Family Tree

Genesis 3-Genesis 5

I have said before that Genesis is a bit of an interesting book to blog about since I know a lot of the stories in it, yet I am enjoying reading it from the beginning, in order. I have read all the way up to the The Flood, and it has been interesting. no major life altering discoveries yet, but it's not about that.
The Fall of Man is a story that I am familiar with, so nothing too surprising came to my mind. I did however, have some thoughts/questions, and I thought I would discuss them here.one thing that I noticed concerns what the snake said to Eve: "for God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened and you will be like God, knowing good and evil"(Genesis 3:5). I might be wrong about this, and probably am, but it seems like...the snake did not really lie. when Adam and Eve ate of the fruit, their eyes were opened, and they knew that what they had done was wrong. so they knew about good and evil. so it doesn't seem like the snake lied but rather...told her the truth, just not the whole truth. I know this probably does not make a lot of sense, but  I am not writing a commentary here, just my own thoughts and opinions and that is something that I thought.
another that I had was about Genesis 3:8-9: "then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man, "where are you?" my thought came from the word "but." the word "but" is used in sentence to state that what was said in the previous part of the sentence is not...correct for lack of a better word. so with this in mind, when it says that they hid from God among the trees but that God called out to the man, it makes me think...did God know where Adam was hiding? just an interesting thought. the word "but" implies that the first part of the sentence is not true or correct, therefore the "but" so does it mean that God knew where Adam was hiding?did God know exactly what had happened? or was God being sarcastic when He asked Adam where he was?weird thoughts I know but what can I say? I'm kinda...strange.
   I am a romantic. one of the things I want the most, is to find a guy and marry him, and have a family, and teach them about God and learn about God and life from them, etc. so with that, it is no surprise that this verse "your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you"(genesis 3:16) caught my eye. this is part of the curse/consequences that God gives to Eve, and it made me wonder if prior to the Fall, woman's desire was not for romance, not for a guy to love her, or to get married or any of that but for God. not that these desires were not there but maybe God was truly the number 1 desire for woman. that is so hard for me to even imagine, but I wish it was still reality you know? as much as I try...I just cannot do it. another thought that I had from this verse was that maybe when God said "rule over you" He didn't mean it in a controlling, power kind of a way. maybe He meant it in an...emotional, in thoughts, kinda way. I had this thought because  it is no secret that I have been in love with this one guy for about 3 years, and he does rule over me in a way. I do think about him a lot, I do care more about him than about myself, and so many of my emotions and thoughts are devoted to him(I know, I know, I'm working on it). So when I read "rule over you" that is what I thought about.
And the LORD God said, “The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil. He must not be allowed to reach out his hand and take also from the tree of life and eat, and live forever.” ²³ So the LORD God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. ²⁴ After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side^[e] of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life." I have written about this thought in a previous post, but when I read this, it did not sound to me like being cast out of the garden or dying were part of the curse. it sounded like God drove them out of the garden so they couldn't eat from the tree of life so they would die. and God wanted man to die because man now knew about good and evil, and it doesn't sound like God wanted man to live forever now that he knew about good and evil(this also kinda supports my earlier theory that what the snake said would happen, did happen). again, really weird theory but I tend to have a lot of those.
"The LORD looked with favor on Abel and his offering, ⁵ but on Cain and his offering he did not look with favor. So Cain was very angry, and his face was downcast"(Genesis 4:4-5). the thought that I had about this passage is that it doesn't sound...fair. it sounds like God is being unfair.it makes God seem like He's playing favorites. I must admit that one of the hardest things about being friends with Brent Bailey is that he is so good at everything, that I know I will never ever be able to measure up. sometimes I feel...inadequate. sometimes I really believe that he is such a better christian than I am. he's compassionate, he loves people, he never gets mad or angry but no matter what you say or do to him, he never gets mad or gets revenge or anything. he reads his bible a lot, he reads christian living books all the time, he goes to life group,etc. and me? i buy christian books but never get around to reading them, I didn't go to life group this past year, and I get mad at people. so basically, he's Abel and I'm Cain. and what this verse says is that God will prefer Brent and not Millie. maybe there is more to the story, but this is one of those stories that doesn't make God look good.
Now Cain said to his brother Abel, “Let’s go out to the field.”^[d] While they were in the field, Cain attacked his brother Abel and killed him.⁹ Then the LORD said to Cain, “Where is your brother Abel?”   “I don’t know,” he replied. “Am I my brother’s keeper?” ¹⁰ The LORD said, “What have you done? Listen! Your brother’s blood cries out to me from the ground"(Genesis 4:8-10). this verse made me wonder if Cain meant to kill or not. since no human had been killed(assumingly) by another human before, it makes me wonder if Cain meant to kill Abel or not. I guess we'll never know for sure. I also noticed/thought that God always knew what had happened...He knew what Adam and Eve did, He knew what Cain had done...yet he always asked them. it's almost as if He was giving them a chance to confess to Him what they had done.interesting thought huh? I also had some verses that I did not really get.Verse 21:²¹ "His brother’s name was Jubal; he was the father of all who play stringed instruments and pipes." I found weird. just...did not make sense to me. verse 17 says that Cain lay with his wife, but we aren't told beforehand that he had a wife so I wonder where he got one from.
"At that time people began to call on^[i] the name of the LORD"(Genesis 4:26). I think that this is when people began praying for the first time. I am probably wrong, but that what it sounded like to me.
chapter 5 was not very interesting, although this verse did stick out to me:^21" When Enoch had lived 65 years, he became the father of Methuselah. ²² After he became the father of Methuselah, Enoch walked faithfully with God 300 years and had other sons and daughters. ²³ Altogether, Enoch lived a total of 365 years. ²⁴ Enoch walked faithfully with God; then he was no more, because God took him away"(Genesis 5:21-24). This stuck out to me because the description of Enoch is different than the others. none of the others in the line are described as having walked faithfully with the Lord. we are just given the genealogical information.is there a significance to this? Was Enoch different?

I know that my thoughts are weird and crazy and probably do not make much sense. I'm sure Brent would have had a bunch of deep and meaningful thoughts and revelations that would have made for an excellent blog post. but I'm not Brent, and I like my crazy thoughts at least they stand out from the crowd right? I am very excited to be doing this and while I haven't had deep and life changing revelations yet, that's not what it's about for me. I'm excited to be learning God's story better.